Posted By Michael Breznau on Aug 31, 2018

Perhaps more than ever before, I look forward to celebrating the Lord’s Supper this coming Sunday morning with Mayfair Bible Church. Stephanie and I need our church family, the community of other Jesus-followers. Our moments of communion remind us of this need in a profound way.

May I pull back the curtains of our home and let you see in for just a moment? Today, my wife and I are reeling with the news of our sixth miscarriage. We hoped and prayed God would grant us a fun and exciting pregnancy announcement, and the delight of a fourth child. But now those ideas have completely unraveled in tears and agony.

In our sadness and grief we’re feebly attempting to take one step forward in quiet trust.

God gently beckons us to place quiet trust in Him. Here’s how the prophet Jeremiah put it:

“Blessed is the person who trusts in the LORD and whose trust is the LORD. For they will be like a tree planted by the water, that extends its roots by a stream and will not fear when the heat comes; but its leaves will be green, and it will not be anxious in a year of drought nor cease to yield fruit.” (Jer. 17:7-8)

Stephanie lives faithfully with quiet trust in God. She places her present struggles, feelings, joys, and pains into God’s hands knowing He is faithful and strong enough to carry her through. I’ve seen my strong, courageous wife do this time and time again. Very much unlike her, sometimes I want to go out in the backwoods and punch away at a large oak tree. I’ve screamed and cried, shouted up at the sky, and yelled into the breeze. Yet in His patience, God has always proven His presence – even in my lack of quietude.

Notice the parallel thought of the second phrase in Jeremiah 17:7, the “blessed” one puts their trust in the LORD, but also their trust is the LORD.

A number of years ago, my wife and I put together will and trust documents for our children. We detailed how we desire everything to be understood and distributed, so that our will would be accomplished upon our death.

Yet here God’s Word points us to make the trust itself – all the details of the future and all the wishes and desires – God Himself. We are called to make the trust itself God Himself, meaning God is all we ultimately hope to have and serve and love.

We know God to be our trust and find Him worthy of our faith. Stephanie and I are placing our future in His hands, recognizing that HE Himself is the ultimate future to be enjoyed forever.

Because God is our trust, we are receiving hope, comfort, and peace. This is what the Gospel, God’s Good News in the risen and returning Jesus Christ, does for all who trust Him (not themselves).

But the wounds are fresh.

The pain is real.

The tears sting.

So we cling to Christ our King who will come again – with our babies in His arms – to make everything gloriously new again.

To the many who have already told us they are lifting us up in prayer, Thank You. We look forward to sensing God’s presence uniquely and powerfully among His people around the table of communion. We’ll share our griefs, carry each other’s sorrows, and choose again to be renewed by hope…until Christ comes.

“Let him who cannot be alone beware of community… Let him who is not in community beware of being alone… Each by itself has profound perils and pitfalls. One who wants fellowship without solitude plunges into the void of words and feelings, and the one who seeks solitude without fellowship perishes in the abyss of vanity, self-infatuation and despair.”
― Dietrich Bonhoeffer, Life Together: The Classic Exploration of Faith in Community